Zyber’s Corner

Define normal: conforming with or constituting a norm or standard or level or type or social norm; not abnormal; “serve wine at normal room temperature”; “normal . Well according to google that’s how you define normalcy. But what is normal?

After 5 months of being off from uni and having next to nothing to do, I’ve just started back at uni. Coming back has a few re-entry problems. Mainly just the university being a bit rubbish. The passwords have all be reset without telling anyone, timetables are all wrong, labs are broken, timetables are pants (technical term), lecturers don’t know what they are doing etc etc.

But what’s new with me? I’ve stopped drinking. 5 days sober and it’s pretty hard actually. I woke up a couple of weeks ago completely happy for no reason which is really strange as it has never happened to me before. It felt good, really good but now I’m wavering. I was happy and didn’t care about all the bad things that have had me depressed for more than a year. I’m beginning to think I was just glossing over the real problems which are very real. But I don’t know. I thought by writing this I would somehow figure out what I wanted needed to do but I don’t. At least I can’t face that decision yet. I’ve got so tired of the whole thing that I don’t want to talk about it to anyone but writing it helps a little. Even though i’m still not ready, I’m still hurting, expressing it without hearing the same old response is good. I have disabled comments on this post.